The trap

About 4.4 million Iraqi have been displaced from their homes according to official sources, 2 million are refugees in the neighboring countries while 2.4 are refugees inside their own country and as I always said I strongly believe the numbers are much higher than this at least the refugees in Europe and other parts of the world are not counted with the 4.4 million and I think they would make more than 1.5 million.

A spokesman for the German government announced that Germany is waiting for the procedures from Baghdad to encourage the Iraqi refugees to get back home considering the improvements in the security situation and he also announced that Iraq should financially help its neighboring countries in carrying the burden of the Iraqi refugees on its lands (haven't Iraq helped them enough by giving them oil in a really reduced price) and from his side; Almaliki told the Germans that Iraq is open for business and German companies and investments are welcomed in Iraq.
The German spokesman said that after a meeting for the European foreign minister in which they discussed the matter of the Iraqi refugees and how should their countries "encourage the Iraqi refugees to get back to their homes"!!! and I could read between the lines that they will stop helping the refugees or accepting new ones and try to force them as much as they can to get back to Iraq because Maliki told them it's safe in Iraq now while at the same time Germany is leading a campaign to facilitate the immigration of the Iraqi refugees into Europe and specially the Christian Iraqis.
The German chancellor Angela Merkel announced her support for Iraq in encouraging the Iraqi refugees to get back to their country and she also said that the Iraqi government has made it clear that the security situation has improved and she announced that she will prepare a program to return the Iraqi refugees in the next two months! But this program will not include the Iraqi Christians because they are endangered by the Islamic fanatics…well; aren't all real Iraqis endangered by those fanatics! They will kill anyone who they don't like whether he is from their sect or not, whether from their religion or not…I think it is a racist thing to exclude the Iraqi Christians from the rest of Iraqis and consider them endangered more than the rest…haven't they agreed that the situation is better and it's safe for Iraqis to return! So why would they fear for the Iraqi Christians? Simply because it's not really safe for the refugees to get back to Iraq.
I can understand the desire of the Iraqi government to get the refugees back to Iraq, they need them for so many reasons and most important of those is the picture of the Iraqi government because when refugees start to get back this means the government made some really good achievements and it is a good victorious government and it did what is required from it and if we believed they want the best for Iraq (that I can't believe) then getting those refugees from outside Iraq who most of them are high skilled members of the society and they are crucial in the process of getting Iraq back on its feet but I can't understand the attitude of the European countries, even if I believed that the situation have really improved there are so many people who are personally targeted, it's very dangerous for them to get back even if the situation is great because as I said they are personally targeted.
The Iraqi government is trying its best to make Iraq a prison which is so similar to what Saddam was doing, Saddam wanted to force all the Iraqis to stay in Iraq and prevent them from escaping and the current Iraqi government is doing the same with a big difference between the two times; At Saddam's the whole world was compassionate with Iraqis and allowing them to stay as refugees but now the whole world is with the Iraqi government and kicking the Iraqis back to the hell hole.
Jordan is almost closed to Iraqis and almost impossible to stay there because of the residency regulations, Syria is a bit hard to get in and so hard to stay there that's about the neighboring countries, Egypt and Gulf countries are impossible to get in…Most of the European countries have closed it's doors in the face of Iraqis and many of them are returning them.
Congrats Maliki, you made a great trap for your countrymen.

Soldiers

Soldiers are not devices that were sharply made in a factory with a strict production plan so that all the products will be exactly the same and the ones that aren't due to some malfunction in one of the production units can be thrown away, Of course they aren't, any army is not a one-unit system, they are just humans and the laws of human psychology applies to all of them, the army (no matter the country) is like any humans group or gathering, it's like a society where you can find the good one and the bad one, just like all the human societies where the bad ones always try to hide their evil and wear the mask of goodness and wait for the right time to release the Satan inside them when there might be no one watching or when they have the power and authority to do evil with a very slight possibility that they might be punished…in the hard times and after some traumatic incidents the good ones might turn bad also; as everybody knows even the most honest and good men have a dark spot and a corner for evil inside them where evil can't wait to go out from that corner in which it has been kept for so many years.
Since all humans have needs and dreams and since there are many ways to achieve those dreams and get those needs so each individual chooses the path that seems best to him and it's a common sense that many of those paths are evil and we must not forget that humans are really complicated creatures where their personality, behavior, judgment and morals are affected and developed by so many factors like genetics, childhood experiences, the way they were raised and who were their parents, the incidents that happened in his life, his believes and the society he grew in…etc, all those things might have a big impact on the choice of the path and since soldiers are humans so it applies to them as well.
And we must not forget an important issue that each human have his believes and customs of his society and surroundings and some humans try to force the others to believe in what they believe and consider anybody who doesn't agree with them an enemy that should be fought, damaged or even killed and this is the most complicated problem in the world these days and as I believe it's the root of all the troubles in the modern world of globalization where nations and civilizations became so close to each other, in fact they interfered with each other so the conflicts begun.
So whether it's the Iraqi army, the US army, the Japanese army, the Mexican army or even the Philippines army, it's all composed of humans some are good and some are bad but the percentage of the bad members makes the judgment on that army along with the big events like a big humanitarian crime or something a soldier in a specific army did that shock the whole world….the credit for the good deeds is given specifically to the one who did it but the bad deeds makes the whole group looks bad even if it was one member who did evil.
I don't want to look as someone who is making propaganda or trying to make the soldiers of the Iraqi or the American army looks good…it's just loud thinking.
What brought this issue to my head and made me think about it are two incidents that I witnessed few days ago, the first was an Iraqi soldier who stopped the cars to help an old woman to cross the street and the other was a terrible road traffic accident near Adhamiya that occurred before my arrival; it was a small car (some Korean car) that crashed with a trailer and the small car was in a terrible situation and it's passengers weren't there but it was a sure thing that some one was hurt badly, I slowed down to see if there is anything I can help with and at the same time a US troops patrol passed and they stopped to check and people told them that a young kid was injured and they took him to the near-by clinic (few meters away) and they went there to see him but he was taken to AlNuman hospital so they said they will go there and take him to their hospital but what an irony that the limping guard of the near-by clinic who told them where the kid went (by the help of the interpreter) was shouting after he told them about the kid "you want to be good now, what about me? Haven't you shot me and caused me permanent damage? What will you do to me? You made me disabled and I haven't done anything wrong"
I saw the Iraqi soldier helping the old lady and many times before I have seen soldiers pointing their guns to old women, humiliating old men and driving recklessly without the need to talk about the crimes that they do that we all know about, but does this mean that the whole army is composed of bad men?
The US troops were trying to help an injured kid but how many kids did they kill by "accident" how many disabled Iraqi kids have they produced like the one that I treated recently, she was 12 years old and was shot with her family near Kilo 160 (on the high way to Jordan and Syria) her father died in that "accident"
Some Iraqi soldiers are very nice when they deal with you but some of them curse you through the loud speakers of their car just because you are in the same street that they are in!
US troops found the orphanage where the kids were tortured and abused and saved them, but how many of those are orphans because of the US troops!…the US troops also tortured, abused and raped so many people in Abu-Ghraib … they saved some people who were injured in explosions but at the same time they shoot randomly when they are attacked and some soldier even killed innocent families for no clear reason.
Few months ago as an eye witness told me " a US patrol passed in Aldubat St. in Adhamiya and some young kids were playing soccer at the sidewalk and when the convoy passed the kids started singing "He he mkhabal , he he mkhabal" and mkhabal means crazy…I think the interpreter told them what the kids were saying and all the convoy stopped and some soldiers stepped out and pointed the guns at the kids and told them to be one line and face the wall…they stayed for some time and told the kids through the interpreter "we will go but we will be able to see you, if anyone moved he will be killed" and I don't need to tell you how the situation of the kids was"
But sometimes US troops gives candies and gifts to the kids when they are relaxed and walking in a street…they even chat with shop owners and try to build good relations with them!!!
I noticed something about the US soldiers and I'm not sure whether it's just a normal human behavior or orders they received from above. I noticed when they are in a relatively safe neighborhood where there is a slight possibility that they will be attacked they are so friendly, smiling and try to build good relations but in a more disturbed areas they are really aggressive and violent, they curse and point guns even at kids when they pass that's if they haven't shot immediately like when they shot my father when he was driving his car and didn't see them coming (they were far) and they shot his car in the gas tank…they shot in front of my car once because I was driving ahead of them in another street but parallel to them and I don't need to talk about the countless times they pointed the laser guide at me or my wife when we were in the car and they were passing.
I think most of the world heard about what they do during the houses search but thank god I haven't experienced such thing because I was searched once and they were from the good men or maybe they were good because my neighborhood is relatively US-safe! I'm not sure.
So what's the deal and who are we dealing with? What should we expect from the Iraqi and American Soldiers?
The deal is: they are humans and each soldier is different, some are good and some are bad and sometimes (as I think) they have orders (non-written) to behave badly and aggressively and sometimes they have orders to be friendly especially in the areas that they took control of and try to maintain it.
War is the time where it's so easy for good people to do good and bad people to do bad, hard times are the best times to reveal the nature of the human soul.

but unfortunately, I can't think like this all the time, there are times when really bad things happen to me or someone else that I hear or witness...I'm just like all the humans; have times when my emotions become more powerful than my mind...sometimes I really hate the Iraqi army when they did what they did to me...or when I hear about the crime they have committed either with a friend, in the news or by emails and blogs or when I see them behaving like animals in the street...sometimes I really hate the US troops when they do the very evil things or when I have to wait for an hour till they move and I don't know why are they stopping in the middle of the street at the first place or when they behave like animals and cursing with a very bad language and making fun of people thinking that we don't understand what they say...etc!!! I felt great anger when I watched the movie "Battle for Haditha" because I know those things happen but it feels much stronger when you see it....I'm a human after all.

So the outlines are: most of the blame should go to the US administration who decided to go across the world looking for its benefits without caring about what will happen to a whole nation while giving the chance for the evil men to practise their evil and killing thousands in a war that they hardly could find a false reason for and the blame should go also to them when they brought the masters of evil with them and assigned them as the new leaders for Iraq and the rest of the blame should go to those criminals in the armies although they couldn't have this chance without the help of the "politicians".

Last of Iraqis junior on the way!!!

Could it be any better? Could I be happier? Is there a day better than today?
My wife did the test in the lab and it was positive, we started jumping and screaming like idiots and we started calling our parents and friends and everyone was so happy but I believe that no one in the whole world is as happy as we are, I can't describe my happiness, I haven't felt like this all my life, what a strange feeling, what an euphoric feeling….I'm happy happy and happy.
I wanted to celebrate the greatest event ever with my love so we went to a new restaurant that was recently opened and we had a great lunch and a wonderful time there but I wanted to make sure that the result of the test is correct because if it wasn't I would be so disappointed that I might kill my self, so my love took another test in another lab and the result was positive too…Now I feel like I'm the king of the world, I felt I own the world…My eyes were filled with tears of happiness all the time and I wanted to take the first photo for my son or daughter J …people asked us do we prefer to have a boy or a girl and I honestly love to have both of them…I can't wait to see my baby, I can't wait 8 months, it's a very long time…
I know I have said before that I don't want to have children in Iraq and this pregnancy was not planned but I can't describe how happy I am…the feeling of fatherhood is great, it's really great specially if the baby is inside my one and only love…feelings of love are overwhelming me…I love the whole world but it can never be compared or even be the smallest fraction to the love for my lovely wife and my son.
May god protect them from any harm and keep me alive and healthy to take care of them…Thank you god for your blessings.

Living hell

The stress and anger reached its maximum levels with me…this can't be, I'm going nuts…something must be done and sadly I believe my words or anybody else's can't change anything otherwise I would write continuously for a week.
We are living in a real hell now; for the past 3 days till now there is a sever sand storm, the sky is red and the air is suffocating added to that the heat is unbearable it reaches 60s and 70s C° in the sun and high 40s in the shade and since we have a sand storm then we can't open the windows and you can imagine how nice the weather is in a closed room in these temperatures…well, I bet you are thinking with your selves what is the problem? Just turn on the air conditioner or the air cooler!! Well, those are electrical devices and they need something really rare to operate; it's the holy electricity…yes, believe me in Iraq electricity is holy…I think soon enough there will be a group of people that warships electricity…why not? People used to warship fire, and electricity is more important than fire!! I'm not crazy or getting close to be but read till the end and you would know what the situation is.
It has been 5 days and there is no fuel in the gas stations! Yes 5 days without a single drop of fuel, that means I can't operate my home generator and once the fuel in the car is finished I'll have to stay at home and screw working, the queue for the gas station is about 6 km long with two rows and that means everything in Iraq will stop working pretty soon, even food will disappear from the markets if this continues ….it has been 4 days without electricity!! Well, we had it for 2 hours during the past 100 hours. You might ask your self "how are you able to use the computer and internet?" thanks to the neighborhood generator guy who is smart and have saved a good amount of diesel fuel to operate his generator for 8 hours a day and my laptop needs 1.5 hour to charge for 2 hours.
There are other methods to fight the unbearable heat; the heat that is not designed for humans at all, many machines wouldn't work in such temperatures…I can have a shower to refresh and cool my self a bit, right? So I went to the shower and I found that there is no water in the tub! It has been more than a week and the water is so scarce, it either drips or there is no water at all…I think that's great, we only have two big rivers and bunch of river branches with many lakes, we are so lucky to have dripping water once and a while !!!….OK, no need to take a shower I already took one with my sweat and keep in mind there is a sand storm out there!…I'll go to the fridge and drink something cold…Ooops, did I say cold? Sorry for that the fridge is hot and there is nothing cool in it and all foods have rotten and they need to be thrown away, isn't that just great?
OK, I must do something…I'll roam the streets to search for fuel from the black market despite my failure yesterday to find any, I heard it was sold for 30,000ID for the 20 Liters that is about 25$ (the actual price is 9,000 ID in the gas station and 12,000 in the black market) I went today and couldn't find fuel but the guy told me he will have some fuel 3 hours from now and he will sell it to me for 40,000 ID…I'll buy it, what can I do but I wish he will be able to get it.
All those beautiful things and the relaxing conditions weren't enough…I was injured few days ago but an injury that happens to anyone it's not related to violence but I can't say what it is to protect my identity…I have to tolerate all those things added to it my sever pain and discomfort from my injury…
What caused those things (as the clowns, sorry, the ministers say)…the minister of oil says that it's because of the ministry of electricity because they are not supporting us with enough electricity to operate the refineries while the minister of electricity said the ministry of oil is not supporting us with enough fuel to operate the power plants!!! And some news says that the truck drivers are refusing to work because of their salary reduction and some say that an important oil pipe was attacked…and I believe it's a dirty game they play and it's intended to increase the miseries of the damned Iraqis…I bet if those things happened in a real country the ministers would resign at the same day but not our folks who seems to have no shame or dignity at all…to hell with democracy and freedom we just want to live as humans do….Well I must end the post now because my charge is almost finished although there things on my mind that I wanted to write.
Would anybody want to stay in a country like this…May god have revenge from everyone who caused this.