The black heart

About 1,000,000 deaths and 1,500,000 Injured Iraqi civilians since the beginning of the war in 2003 , an estimation of 4,000,000 Iraqis have been displaced with 2,200,000 fled out of the country and the rest are refugees inside their own torn country (I believe the real number of Iraqis outside Iraq is greater than this).

Great numbers , right? a lot of zeros , a lot of grief and sadness , a lot of humiliation , a lot of black clothes , rivers of tears and many shocking stories , it's not just numbers . Just count all the people you knew throughout your life , not only the ones you talk to , but all the people you know, what their count will be?500 or may be 1000? let's say 1000. Can you imagine that all the people you know are only 0.1% of the civilian casualties in Iraq.

with those huge numbers and that great pain , I only want to know why? why all those people had to die? Why all those people had to leave their homes their jobs and their beloved to escape from Iraq and be humiliated , be an immigrant.Why is that?Why Iraqis have to leave their beautiful homes and live in a tent in the middle of the desert , why do they have to be refugees in their own country?

Why every scientist , doctor , former army members and jet fighter pilots have to be killed or threatened?

Why there is no one left in Iraq?Why did every one leave Iraq to keep his life?Why all of this is happening to Iraq and Iraqis ? I believe what happens in Iraq didn't happen anywhere in the world throughout the history of the mankind.

Who is responsible for all of this?

Who is responsible for the 40,000 undefined dead bodies which were buried in the Najaf cemetery alone , just in Najaf cemetery ! Whose responsibility that 22% of households had lost a member to violence during the occupation?

Is it the US government and troops? is it Al-Qaida? Is it the Sunni militias? or maybe it's the Shiite militias? it might be Iran? or even Syria? Maybe all the neighboring countries? or it might be the Iraqi government? what about the police and the national guards?it might be also the criminals gangs and thugs?

I think the most suitable answer is : ALL OF THE ABOVE. Each one of them is taking his part in destroying the country and having his interest . Iraq after the war was like a big cake and the criminals jumped on it , every one wants to take the biggest share , while the Iraqis were stepped on.

Sometimes I hear in the talk shows , TV news and many people talking together or with me that who ever do these things he isn't Iraqi , he couldn't be Iraqi , and that really makes me laugh and think how naive people can be. They are Iraqis and lived in Iraq all their lives , even if there are criminals from outside Iraq , they must have received some help from the inside.

and as I said in many posts before there are two types of Iraqis : Iraqis and real Iraqis ; I like to name the categories like this. The real Iraqis are the people that helped building Iraq , who loves their country , who spent their lives serving the country and the Iraqi flag , who helped their countrymen through all the ordeals , they are very kind and helpful , they are the majority of people I see everywhere ; in the streets and markets UNTILL the war . when the war started those people became rare day after day , some left Iraq because they can't handle things anymore , some got threatened , some got kidnapped and some of them were killed.

Iraq is depleted of real Iraqis , the noise of death , the ugly greed and the jungle laws kicked them out of Iraq.and from now on I'll refer to the other kind as fake Iraqis , because they are infamy to Iraq and Iraqis.

The first crime in the history was a brother who killed his brother , Cain killed Abel .

If the first crime was a brother who killed his brother why don't the Iraqis kill each other?

yes they are Iraqis , they have the Iraqi nationality , they were born in Iraq , they have lived in Iraq , but whatever they have done they are not real Iraqis , and will never be.

In the governmental clinic I work in , I noticed something and because of it I wrote this post , I noticed that the majority of the women and girls are wearing black , and the black is the sign of grief , they will continue to wear it for 40 days at least if it's a distant relative but if it's a close relative they will wear it for a year or more and maybe for the rest of their lives.

I just want to imagine with all these deaths in Iraq from 1980 till now , with these three fierce wars , and many mothers and wives who refuses to take out the black along with current deaths and blacks , if we asked them all to go out in the street and we looked from the sky , we will see a very big black area , this area is the heart of Iraq , it's the wounded heart of Iraq , it's the story of pain and struggle for the successive generations , it's the symphony of death and political ignorance .

In the elementary schools they taught us that the Iraqi flag and most of the Arabic countries have these colors because of this poem for the great Iraqi poet Saphy Al-Deen Al-Hili:

Our deeds are white , Our battles are black

Our dwellings are green , our swords are red

Can't see the weakness before we have the desire

Even if we saw the death in that desire

but I think the Iraqi flag now have none of those glorious meanings , the Red is for the river of the Iraqi blood that crosses Iraq from north to south and east to west abound with pain and sorrow , the White is for the thousands of shrouds used weekly in Iraq , the Black is for the uniform of the Iraqi mothers , wives and sisters , while the green which is a symbol of prosperity and that represents hope because it represents the glorious past and the history of Iraq , Iraq the first country in the world that legislated a law is now without any laws! controlled by thugs and its future is in the hands of a bunch of selfish ignorants.